I fear death.
I fear a lot of things
but what I fear the most
is not knowing.

M

Motions of lights
Glaring visions
A distinct laughter
That smile

Memories fade
Refusing to let go
Reminiscing the past
Just seems not long ago

Many things
I would change
I would undo
my words
my actions
but not how I felt

There's no point
Don't bring it up
Move on
I have
Why don't you?

I need a LIFE

First week of semester break
All I can think is GROCERIES
We're out of eggs
detergent
OMG! We're out of Soy sauce
I'm chinese, I can't live without it!

I feel like a housewife
I never knew I'm such a domestic freak.
The supermarket is my life now
well for the next few weeks....

Bloody Loudspeakers!

I hate people with poor phone etiquette.
It gives me a fucking headache.

Exposed

Hold my hand
Don't let go
See here
This is where I'll cry

Don't leave
I have something to share
For you I confide

Open me up
See me naked
raw
exposed
most of all vulnerable
I'm not the usual me
This is another side of me
when I'm not hiding
lying
pretending

I'm trying
can't you see
I'm not running
nor ignoring

I am still trying.

Stalker's Fantasy

We cross paths
Said nothing to each other
Go on with our lives
Knowing what an idiot we are
for not confessing our feelings

We cross paths again
This time we smiled
Go on with our lives
Smacking our head
for not confessing our feelings

I watched you from far
Made sure you don't see me
You watched me watching you
Making sure I don't realised that you know

I find out everything you like
You go through the same thing as well
I go through your page
You go through mine
I download your favourite musics
You read my favourite books

I wish you were mine
You wish the same as well
Too cowards to say what's on our minds
We leave thing as it
Not knowing

Seriously?!

Seriously,
Can this world have no bloody peace
Every corner I hide
A fucker will go
Woohoo I found you

Seriously,
Where the hell did all the bitches pop out?
Is there an influx of bitches at hell
Where Satan goes " we might as well share with them up there"

Seriously,
I wonder how idiots survive in this world
Is it their ignorance
Stupidity or
Their just plain lucky
But yet again their idiots

Seriously,
I need a guide for
surviving the world of bitches
If they ever come out in volumes.

Farm

I want a farm
So I can breed lots and lots and lots and lots and lots
of Hot Male Models
and Girls too

Happy Belated Fucking Mothers Day

Don't make me feel guilty
I don't buy that crap
I will never get along with "family"
Because there's no such word exist in my vocabulary

Leave me alone
I want to be alone
I see myself with 10 cats when I'm old
I'm content with that

Don't tell what to do
Don't make me the bloody conservative that you are
Don't judge my friends
Go judge yourself for not being properly educated

I will never be your chinese ed daughter
I'm not chinese enough
and I will never be
Let me be

It's frustrating enough
that we don't see eye to eye
can't you see I'm trying

Why can't you accept the fact
that I will never get along
with your side of the family
more like all side of the family

It isn't enough that you took my dreams away
Now you want to take what I enjoyed
I won't let you do it
I'm standing my grounds
Like it or not

Why can't you accept
the things that i choose
Why can't just for once
bloody UNDERSTAND!

I hate you and the so called family!

In midst of dramas

Let the stories do their thing
Then await the catastrophe
Then wait
and wait
Till finally
You're somehow involved

3 choices

Rip their hearts with your bare hands

OR

Walk away

OR

Stay and let the others rip themselves apart

When Camera Phone Acts Funny

The Love of My Life

I Love You
Yes, You!

Nothing else in the world but you
I wish you were here with me 24/7
It's possible for us to be together all day
But I choose to keep you away

You waited for me without complains
I just use you whenever I needed you
Yet there's not a single dissatisfaction from you
I threw you aside when I was preoccupied
Yet you still waited for me to take you inside

I have never share my bed with someone like you
You always make me feel wanted
Needed
Most of all Loved
You never refuse my hugs
My tears
My joy
My pain
You were always there for me
But the selfish me was absent for you
Even though there's no words of love from you
I know that you love me too

I Love You
Yes, You!
My 23 year old bantal busuk
That's you!

Holy Crap!

Yikes
I'm getting into trouble

Yikes
It's not going to be pretty

Yikes
Where's the nearest bloody exit

Yikes
I'm getting into more trouble

Yikes
Oh Fuck it, I'm going to die anyway!

Dear Me

Dear Me,

I don't know you anymore
changes after changes
wears me out

Dear Me,

I don't see us together
I see you
through my eyes
nothing else
but you running "our" life

Dear Me,

You know I care
Let "it" go for me
and you
for us

Dear Me,

What do I want
What do you want
We don't know